a little less suicidal....

SO...i just got back here and read my last post, which is why i appropriately names this one "a little less suicidal.."
haha

I've found myself moving forward into the winter, taking on tasks larger then i have before..and taking advice better then what i use to. I really needed it to.
Just simple things that maybe i would have let slide through my ears before have now caught my attention, and have showed me its what i need to press on forward.

"keep on keepin' on"

Joe dirt said that..and as sad of reference as that may be....it's simple but true.
so with that said...

i put out a new single "Satisfied"
you can check it out at www.myspace.com/mattkoziol

it's that sexy tune..blaring guitars...tempting lyrics..

i think you'll like it :)

as of my regular life...it's very cold! ahah the weather has caused me some illness..but i'm doing fine! i did however grill outside today! haha see nothing too much happening..i just didn't want to neglect! but i will be back soon! i promise!

CAN ANYONE HEAR ME?......

Listen man, enough is enough....

i just need one person....one person to make that phone call to me that'll say..
"hey matt, this is your life calling...please say your ready."

and i'll respond with..
"i've been waiting on you.."

things are too familiar now..things are just working on the same line.

I NEED THAT CALL.
that email.
that letter.
that text.

...something...

i need my dreams to catch up to reality.


CAN ANYONE HEAR ME.....?

I've got dreams......

DREAMS TO..REMEMBER....

if it hasn't been said enough.
there're the very last thing holding us together as people.
"dreams"
dreams to live,laugh, and love.
Sometimes, getting to that dream isn't as simple as it should be,
but if it was simple, everyone would be happy to fast and not enjoy it.

i've got dreams...dreams to remember

and when the day is done, and all is left in the corner

you'll feel the beating heart, and pray for her

to find her own..

to pave her way..

to make sure all the things she has and want can stay

ohh i've got dreams...

dreams of my broken heart, and sunken eyes

and use my way to realize..that it's all been done before

and i may not be the last

i may be left here standing with my hopes inside my past...

oh ive got dreams.....

yea i got dreams..

Dreams to Remember.

So what?...

I have this funny feeling that sometimes the select few of us in the world "overestimate" our age. We are the young people who could have a better conversation with a 60 year old man from Alabama, then we could with a group of kids we grew up with.

I'm 20 years old, and I'm trying to push my dreams as if i was 65. I sometimes feel like i don't have enough time, or I'm too old to really do what I want and should give up and settle now.

But i have come to that conclusion that i just "overestimate" my age. 

We really have the time to get what we need done. Just because the media makes it seem that the older you get the less likely it is that your dreams of fame, traveling, or being successful will happen doesn't make them true.

DON'T BELIEVE EVERYTHING YOU HEAR OR READ!

it's a crock of shit. we HAVE the time we just take it for granted.

my advice:

keep doing what you're doing because eventually that first piece will chip away and you'll begin your journey. and if an obstacle gets in the way, stay TRUE to your heart. do not always put other people before yourself, because who's going to put you in front of their own well being? no one. 

Even if you go for what you want, and you fall... you will never live with the regret of never giving it your best shot.

my quote of the night:

"so what?"

-matt-

So it's been a while....

so..i realize it's been a while and i think to keep myself sane, i need to get back into this.

let's go with a topic first: Music

The music has been going well! I'm discovering a good amount of new places that can help out in terms of booking shows, and getting my name out there. The album is doing good, from what i hear most people like it and honestly that was my biggest fear. "will people like my record?" i mean i know it's my first album, but just the idea i was wishing people would dig. in terms of a "message" being sent through my music ( not too much of a cliche), i feel like time will send the message itself.

ok, NEXT topic : Love Life

well, i'll keep this short mainly because i don't have much to say. 

It's a strange feeling knowing that all you thought you knew was wrong for you. Kind of finally putting down the facade and realizing maybe certain feelings weren't meant for certain people. I always claim, however, that my life is a movie....i still believe it. given the right time, right girl, and the right soundtrack.... things will fall into place.

I think i'll keep the last one general: LIFE

LIFE...it's just been such a funny thing lately.

i said to a friend of mine the other day... 

"it's like solitude heals the cut, and nature is the band-aid."

I honestly don't know if that makes sense to anyone but myself, but i wouldn't be blogging if i didn't want to find out!

I mean we all need time alone, it's obvious. But when has time alone ever felt perfect? when has that car drive, with no destination and the right CD, just felt so perfect in time? I always tell people ..

"i got nothing but time, and a full tank of gas."

it's a cheesy quote i know, but it honestly leaves so much room for exploring and it's a wild idea, you know? just getting in the car and driving with no place to go but forward.

then nature...man forget it! Seeing things that were just built to be natural, and have stayed that way blow your mind! it's like therapy......just FREE! haha

what i say is...if you have the means, please try it. it is so choice! 

just get in your car and drive! see what the surrounding world really has to offer you...and when you get back let me know how you feel.

hmm my quote of the day...

"never die young"

got to love james taylor.

-matt-

BACK WITH THE D&D

So I'm home from the Poconos!!! well actually I've been back, i just haven't had much time to sit down and write (not that I'm trying to neglect you or anything!), but i just needed time to reflect.

on what...i still don't know.

Now i thought going to the Poconos was going to be this eye opening experience where I'd truly find myself out among the wild.....no homo.however, and my luck..none of that happened.i did however come across a great discovery, and probably the main idea of me going up there anyway. And that is realizing how living on my own would be. i mean i wasn't deathly afraid of being by myself, i knew i could take care of myself, and i found things to do.....and that was in the middle of the woods!! haha so i think I'm fairly capable of living alone and enjoying space with no one to fill it but myself. 

i think that was the real deal behind me going up there. It's just funny how u go somewhere expecting soo much, and come out short of that expectation...but if you step back and take a look at what you've done, you'll find a lesson learned from it.

i think with these blogs I'm going to start a quote of the blog...i most likely won't be able to remember who I'm quoting from unless it's myself...but i think i got a good one to start off:

"it's bullshit, and it's bad for you"-George Carlin

enough said.

-matt-

Mt. Pocono ....Part 1

so.....how's that for a view?

It's day one of the poconos, and my minds just kind of blow away. i don't really have a constant thought processing through my troubled brainium !(ok so maybe brainium wasn't the best choice of a word, but i'm rolling with it)

the ride up was long, got kinda lost, then back on track..however i did get to listen to Nickel Creek the entire way up, and if you haven't heard of them...please do urself the favor. they're an amazing group, amazing writers, amazing everything...haha ok so beside sounding like a 10 year old girl, they're very talented. They also just make the ride up here enjoyable. The music just takes me back to this same spot every time. nothing but woods, the lake...deer...nature.

my mind hasn't really cleared yet, i'm still tryin to write alot down, and get more ideas for tunes. i have a new one inspired by a troubled girl back home....sometimes wish people knew what they were worth. but thats where i'm at now..not really any different then when i left, but i'll post when i'm about to leave and let u know how it is.

i'll be ready when love comes to town.

-matt-